Confession

Well as you all know that i dont have any mother since i was 6 yrs old! when i was 7 yrs old starting my Primary school. having so many Parent around me taking of thier children making so me jealous, sad and angry! coz i jut living with my maid, my father is not always around coz he working oversea! well from the third day of school till primary three, I will juz wait outside school till all the others students went home, coz i think i juz hope that i could be like them.Having ur parent fetch u after school. i always wonder how it feels like! and how it feels like having a birth mother taking care of you! since i was primary 2 till now! i seriously wanne know how it feel like! but i know i will not get the answer coz i cant turn back time!

having a mess up life is not that easy you know! first of all i wanne say! I KNOW MY ENGLISH AND MALAY SUCKS! becoz unlike you fucking people u have someone on your side teaching you or help you on your school work since in primary school! it is just fucking irriatating that all the fucking people keep tell me that my english is bad! well im sorry that when i was young after school i dont do any homework, learn my spelling! sorry i dont have anyone to scold when i was young! all i do is go to school, after that go home watch tv, eat, sleep and go playground! I really dont need u people to understand my fucking problem but i just want you people to stop tell me! maybe when u tell me u may see that i smiling and laugh about the insults but actually it really2 hurt me! :s

Thats all for now lah! i will confess more someother time......