Life and relationships are funny in the way that they don’t always remain the same. Sometimes people change so much that relationships become harder to maintain. Lovers, friends and even family need to grow and evolve together or they may find themselves feeling the need to pull apart. If you don’t allow these things to happen and move with the tide a little, you’ll find yourself constantly struggling as you swim against the current. That is tiresome. You find yourself held back. When you feel you’re being stunted you become distressed, frustrated and sometimes you become a little bitter about those who are holding you back in life.

You never know, maybe things will get easier. I just know they can’t continue as they are.

You know what's the best thing about telling secrets to your friends? They will tell others. And even better, you thought you could trust them in the first place.

Today is her third year anniversary, since she pass away. and i still cant forgive myself for what had happen to her! it's still hurt me badly! Please stop calling me and ask me what actually happen to her that day! i still cant talk about it,

i will just blog about it! for those who want to know. well three years on 15 Aug 2006 on monday after School we want to watch movie at Tampines! when we reach near Tampines, about to cross the road, a car was speeding which is about to hit me but she push me away and hit her! Her blood is all on my cloths. ambulance was call, but the ambulance didnt make on time. I know that her parent said is not my fault but i feel that i should be the one! Not her.

Well the next day, when i go to school trying my best to act like notting happen. but everyone say im heartless "How you can be smiling when your Girlfriend just pass away yesterday" after that around 10am i really can't hold back anymore, and i went home.

Reach home, my parents scold me for skip school(which they didn't know what happen). in my mind, my bad day go to worst.

i still trying to move on but how? please help me...

I'm heavily broken
And I don't know what to do
Can't you see that I'm choking
And I can't even move
When there's nothing left to say
What can you do
I'm heavily broken
And there's nothing I can do

Almost giving up on trying
Almost heading for a fall
And now my mind is screaming out
I've gotta keep on fighting
But then again
It doesn't end