this month i been spending alot of money! till i broke now,only $27 left till the next salary! well what i do with it! haha well paid bill total around $500 then been spending on a place to stay! i been stay at downtown chalet eveytime pay 3days 2night, image one time book is about $200 then i been staying there about a month! actually spending is more then $2k puls all my saving all! sigh....^^ well i think now i should stay at void deck... it's free...haha

i really2 need the money right now! firsty i always must ensure that my salary reach $500 so that i could pay my bill then the rest is what i can spend. but this comming month my pay is only $600 plus.... sigh

why i been feel so lonely this few days? i feel that im alone! no friends,no family.... just me! i now also very depress been eatting painkiller to maintain my stress level! haha^^! what should i do?? i will write more 2morrow...alright! ahah

Confession

Well as you all know that i dont have any mother since i was 6 yrs old! when i was 7 yrs old starting my Primary school. having so many Parent around me taking of thier children making so me jealous, sad and angry! coz i jut living with my maid, my father is not always around coz he working oversea! well from the third day of school till primary three, I will juz wait outside school till all the others students went home, coz i think i juz hope that i could be like them.Having ur parent fetch u after school. i always wonder how it feels like! and how it feels like having a birth mother taking care of you! since i was primary 2 till now! i seriously wanne know how it feel like! but i know i will not get the answer coz i cant turn back time!

having a mess up life is not that easy you know! first of all i wanne say! I KNOW MY ENGLISH AND MALAY SUCKS! becoz unlike you fucking people u have someone on your side teaching you or help you on your school work since in primary school! it is just fucking irriatating that all the fucking people keep tell me that my english is bad! well im sorry that when i was young after school i dont do any homework, learn my spelling! sorry i dont have anyone to scold when i was young! all i do is go to school, after that go home watch tv, eat, sleep and go playground! I really dont need u people to understand my fucking problem but i just want you people to stop tell me! maybe when u tell me u may see that i smiling and laugh about the insults but actually it really2 hurt me! :s

Thats all for now lah! i will confess more someother time......

the more i think about u! the more i like u! But why are u making things so hard for me? :S

Last post dated 20 August. Oh dear, i've been so damn busy. I apologise. (singing, it's too late to apologise~~) Alright alright, i'm gonna do up a proper entry now (06 September 6am in the morning)

Comex IT fair was fun. I think. Feels kinda like i've wasted my time. But nvm that, i wasted my time with fee! He's enlisting too. (and all of us go, 'awwwww') Eh eh eh, people going to defend our country lor. Defend us with everything they've got. Defend us with a lousier sense of fashion. Warcraft players, continue reading. Non warcraft players (no lifers hahaha), read next paragraph. Why cant army do things like tower defence! Build towers and defend ourselves. Once in awhile recruit units like goblins and dragons to fight for us. The world will be a better place without army. Let us all roll our eyes at the army in unison. (ROLLLLLL)

Oh and i'm very touched that people actually visited me at the comex it fair! Next, i'm gonna start working at taka^^. Drop me a message before coming by to say hi! I have a weak heart. Cannot handle surprises, stress, depression, excitement, anger etc etc. (okay might as well just die lah hor)

GOODBYE AUGUST, HELLO SEPTEMBER! Eh i think i should have typed that out at the beginning of this entry. Nvm. Never too late. (still singing, it's too late to apologise~~)