Not exactly feeling any better. Nothing's making things better. I had a bad day. I thought hmm maybe i should open the blinds in my room to let in some light and fresh air. But no, my darn old blinds fell on me. Nothing's going my way, nothing.

No dont tell me things will change for the better cause i know it will obviously. I cant expect things to get any worse right? Oh wait, that's possible. And no dont tell me to cheer up cause you guys and i all know i will cheer up soon enough. But how soon? I wanna feel good now! Now now now! I wanna be happy again, i really do. But my heart's aching bad, really bad. No matter how hard my friends all tried to comfort me, i still feel that ache. It feels like i've been working hard, way too hard for things to go well. I'm tired man! I'm so tired i need galleons of redbull, galleons of coffee and tons of lollipops outing. But no, my lovables decided to postpone the outing till next week. Cant wait. No, literally, cannot wait till next week. I might just break down halfway through the week.

My head's killing me. All these thinking. Restless sleep every night. I wake up every morning before 7 just to take a peep at my phone and try to sleep again. I get out of bed, wash up and stare at myself in the mirror. I pull and pull my hair to make it look decent. Scrubbed my face so hard i want my face to peel. I dont know anything anymore. I seriously dont.

Just tell me how to live. Tell me.